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contemplative In an odd way, I feel rather prideful of the fact that I was born in the year of the Tiger. I'm sure you skeptics would say it's all a load of bullshit, but I say it's because I was born in the year of the Tiger. We're like the Jay-Z of the Chinese Zodiac. When I visited China (
I feel certain that this example has nothing to do with the exemplary service Epcot employees are expected to display at all times, and everything to do with the fact that I was born in the year of the Tiger.
In hindsight, I did learn a lot this year. I learned a lot about myself, and am, I suppose, a little bit wiser as a result (a little bit wiser). I'm certainly stronger. I recall hearing something about 2010 being the year of the Metal Tiger, which I believe meant it would bring monetary changes, influence careers, etc. I did get an unexpected promotion this year, and did make a few leaps and bounds in the acting field. I feel like I'm on the right path now (for now), career-wise, so I suppose 2010 was wonderful in that regard. It certainly had its ups and downs, but like I said, I do feel stronger and wiser and more independent as a result. I've learned to rely on myself more instead of others, and am learning to like and trust myself a little bit more. I surprised myself this year, and I'm genuinely excited to discover what 2011 holds.
I haven't made any actual resolutions, but I do view every New Year as a new beginning. So, I vow to be healthier- and not in the lose [insert number here] pounds sense, but in the- pack some @#$%^*% celery and hummus the night before, fatty!- sense. I rang in the New Year re-watching Arrested Development. Perhaps Lucille Bluth has inspired me in more ways than one. Not only do I aspire to one day be her, but now every time I'm feeling "too tired" to pack a healthy lunch, I'll think of this-
and toss some baby carrots into some tupperware.
I also vow to be firmer-
not in the literal sense, but in the sense that I am now supposedly a manager, and have to learn embrace that new-found role. One of my worst traits is the tendency to feel unworthy of what I am given. I'm still utterly hopeless at accepting compliments, for instance, and I need to learn to simply say- "thank-you", or accept what I am handed instead of fearing I'm holding it wrong, as if it's a newborn infant instead of an opportunity. In a way I feel jaded. I've been forced to cope with the envy of others in the past, and that can become a very underhanded and upsetting ordeal. I avoid it at all costs by being self-deprecating and overly modest, but it's imperative I learn to value my own worth and, well, not care, or fear what others might think of me/how they may respond.
That being said, I have surrounded myself with a group of friends and peers who are all confident and comfortable in themselves and are all venturing down their own unique paths. I am so fortunate now to have people like this in my life, instead of the sort of people who will compare and compete and stand in front of your chosen path and tell you all the reasons why you shouldn't take that route. The only hindrance remaining in my life now, whose opinion I still take into account above all others, is my own. I've come to understand that now.
I also vow to read more! I received an E-Reader for Christmas and I intend on having all 100 classics read by 2012!
With all that being said, I'm not entirely optimistic about 2011 so far, as my dog was my kiss at midnight, and shortly after that she puked. Yes, I rang in the New Year cleaning up doggy vomit.
Maybe 2011 is the year of the "Puking Dog" and no one told me.
January 1 2011, 21:21:46 UTC 1 year ago
Anyhow I will be optimistic enough for the both of us for this year.
January 2 2011, 03:08:20 UTC 1 year ago
January 3 2011, 01:25:30 UTC 1 year ago
Inspiring words, actually. I'll try to think of that analogy when I'm put in a similar position. ^-^
Hope Cassie's tummy is ok. Dog vomit is never pleasant to clean... =/
March 21 2011, 19:37:57 UTC 1 year ago